so much...

It is indeed a blessing to be living in a tropical country where there's no need to worry about changing seasons. At least we don't need to make preparations for decreasing/increasing temperatures. But i guess it just lacks some sense of romance? or is romance the right word to describe that innate desire i have? It's been ten years since i came here. I've pretty gotten used to everything here, be it the people, the places, the food... Sometimes others, and myself even, would think that i'm more like a singaporean than a chinese. Haha i guess it's because i don't carry with me a special accent? and i always explain to others because i came from fujian and many singaporeans actually belong to hokkien dialect group, maybe that's why i simply blend in so well. but who really cares man? haha.

yes i like who and where i am. and i believe this will be the place where i will spend most parts of my life in. but there's just something inside that tells me to go out, out of this familiar place, and into a new environment, somewhere different, somewhere with four seasons (:p). isn't it exciting to experience four different seasons? to see different sceneries in one year? to meet different people? to study under a different education system? all these seem too attractive. and yes i'm going to fulfill my dream of doing the course i like and eventually come back to do the job i like 4 years or maybe 5 years later. it's all but a dream to me a few months back. now it's so real that i thought i'm still dreaming. silly sia. maybe i'm just being the slow self who's always slow when it comes to strong emotions, like overwhelming sadness that will eventually sweep over me when i leave this country. i know i will be sad, i know tears are bound to come, i know everything will eventually turn out to be not as nice and happy as they seem to me right now. but i'm not going to let such emotions come in so soon, hehe not until at least 2 months later, hopefully.

i have been doing some serious stuff, by that i mean stuff that will bring in income. haha and of course not neglecting all the scholarship stuff that's coming in. on some days, i just don't feel like doing anything. i just want to read books or just sit on sofa and not doing anything. i don't think i will get to enjoy this kind of lifestyle ever again, maybe only when i'm super old.

woa this is a long entry sia. just suddenly feel like writing so here's all my crap. :P i hope i can keep up this habit of regular blogging when i'm overseas, at least that's what i promised xin. (though i'm not entirely confident of doing that. but i'll try. :D)

p.s i love haruki murakami!! he writes so well! i'm so going to buy all his books when i have more money! :DDD