yay!

hehe the past few days had been really exciting for me... and i think my sleeping and eating habits are all abnormal now.

hm thank god especially for such a successful youth camp! it was real fun! and we truly bond together as one family. haha but this family a bit weird la, every time we meet, the first thing is to play Polar Bear! i guess we are all addicted to it now. :p

and dun know why, i kept gg to city hall that area these few days. seems like everybody likes to hang out there. went to play bowling yst with church mates n i took photos with my fav kid yirong!! yay so happy! he's super cute lo n he can memorise bible verses and can pray oso! so li hai...which makes me like him even more!!

finally got a day to slack at home so i shall not waste it. gg to prepare well for next yr's relief teaching... hopefully i can be a good teacher!! yay all the best!!:D

The Kite Runner

wow this book is extremely powerful!!! just like one of the commentaries written on the book cover: "it's so powerful that for a long time after, everything i read seemed bland." dat's exactly how i feel! really! i'm not good at writing book reviews, so if want to know how good this book is, go n read it!! :P

A's OVER!!!!

yay!! i still can't believe that A's all over le!! i've really become so used to sitting at my desk and mugging and mugging for almost the whole day... today's last paper, and i cun say it's not a nice ending to all the mental torture for the past near 2 mths (or maybe more than that).

we went out and truly slacked for the whole afternoon. haha but i must say that we are just a bunch of extremely cultured people :p first we went to That CD Shop and indulged ourselves in some real classic music. then we went to Borders and i bought an even more classic book! huh!!

hmm but there was just a sudden surge of emptiness in me. i guess i have to start planning for my pre-uni life. yup, am going to dunman to relief teach. just feel that God really really love me lots. He even prepared my path for me and i believe He will guide me through all these. i was worrying whether ny will accept me and there my laoshi started asking me whether i want to go to dunman to teach or not. haha it's just all planned well for me. thanks Lord! :DD and what's more! meng is gg too!! yaay!!! it's gg to be extremely fun and exciting!! :P

oh and must start reading the books i bought last time. :D

在我生命留下一首歌

因为不想只是个过客
所以用笑容留下足迹
铺满青春的小路
这是我为往事盖的印章
方便了回忆的倒带
或许... 也为我留下一首歌
(预防我的少年痴呆症)
... 在我还清醒的时候

P.s
我毕业了!!!

The Silent Prayer

haha was ploughing through my Sec 4 english file, found this poem i wrote. it's a sonnet!! hehe i dun relly remember what exactly is a sonnet. :P but anw, i'm still very proud of myself for producing such a wonderful piece of poem... and it even has rhyme! :P hehe i dun think i can write a comparable piece now.

btw, it was written after a school trip to Kranji Memorial Park. so it's a bit gloomy and sad...

The Silent Prayer

For sixty three years, they lie in silence;
Amongst the neat rows of white, their bodies stay;
Only the names prove their once existence
On the cold panels of yellowing clay;
Thousands upon thousands of strangers all
Long forgotten and yet to be laid down
In the same land that's richer than before;
Waiting, for footsteps yet to break the dawn.

And, listen, only to roars of laughter,
Disturbing the souls of eternal life
Who fought hard for battles so far away
From their love, their dreams, and even flowers
Of their beloved homeland. Here shall strive
The brightest ray of sun. Peacefully pray...

P.S prelim is finally over!!! yay!! yesterday went to luyang's house for his house warming... it was very fun!! we played heart attack and relly screamed our lungs out every single time someone shouted "heart attack!!!" haha some of us even had sore throat after that! then, we had bbq. it took us really a long time to set up the fire (thanks yu tse!!!) hahh and i became the "buttering lady" cos i volunteered to do the 'butter-ing'. :P

but our form cum chem teacher did not bring us good news about our chem prelims. sigh... heard that no one in our class scored above 50 upon 80 for chem paper3...and the highest is only a B...hai there goes my A for chem... :/ next week comes the nicely arranged and highly packed post prelim programme. so my slacking can only last until this weekend... have to re-start mugging next mon.

:/

捡爱

玫瑰枯萎在你的目光中
含苞待放的有效期
走到了尽头
一片片凋零的泛黄
砌成过去的不堪回首
漂流在深隧的汪洋中

在风中独立的人都已化成风

在風中 楊澤


在風中獨立的人都已化作風。
在風中，在落日的風中我思索：
一個詩人如何證實自己依靠著風，
他如何向大風歌唱？
除了──啊，
通過愛 通過他的愛人，
他的民族他的年代，
他如何在風中把握自己
一如琴弦在樂音中顫慄、發聲與歌唱......

在風中獨立思索的人都已化成風。
在風中，在落日的風中我思索：
一個人如何免於焦慮或渺茫他的愛，
他的愛如何得到一種崇高的表達？
除了──通過陽光比大理石更堅實的光輝，
通過季節通過群星啊，
遠比命運更莊嚴的運行，
他如何在風中獨立，思索，
當落日在風中，蒼茫墜落無聲......

在風中獨立思索風的人都已化成風。
在風中，在落日的風中
假如他大聲歌唱，
他將喚回所有逝去的歌者，
站在他的四周，環繞他像群星環繞宇宙的黑暗
與空虛歌唱光明，歌唱愛；
在風中，在落日的風中
假如他逆風流淚奔跑，
大風將與他並行，
並為他悄悄拭去
所有的淚......




*哇。。。这首诗写得超赞！

social withdrawal syndrome

beginning to feel the pressure piling up... only 6 weeks left before prelims...

social withdrawal syndrome

"r u going for prom?"
"no."
"but everyone is gg leh "
"i just dun feel like."
"huh......but it's like not very nice if only a few pple in the class r not gg"
"even if there's only me not gg, i will still not go."

stubborn eh?

hssrp

sighs of relief... went NUS to meet my mentor for hssrp today. was rather bothered by his comments for my first draft of research paper. he said “最大的问题在于对研究问题的定义” 。woa that's like disapproving my whole report since everything is done based on my research topic! so i had been grumbling these few days about this. if he insists on his idea i will really flunk my h3 cos given the amount of time left , i will definitely not be able to do a new research paper. but thank god for answering my prayers :D everything is resolved now. haha so we made a compromise. now i do not have to make drastic changes to my current report any more. yay!! oh but there's another shocking news: my mentor is quitting at the end of this month. a bit sad. :( hmm he said he will settle this problem. probably there will be another teacher taking over. haizz hopefully we will not be that much affected.

okie shan't waste too many brain cells on this now. back to revision.

Lan Fang Republic

haha interesting sia. din know my name is so so famous. read the following: :P

兰芳共和國


兰芳共和國（1777年—1884年），全稱兰芳大统制共和国，是華人所創立的第一個共和國。177年广东梅县客家人罗芳伯在东南亚西婆罗洲（今加里曼丹西部）成立了“兰芳公司”，1777年罗芳伯將“公司”改為“共和國”，成為“兰芳共和國”。兰芳大统制建立时, 第一任總長是陈兰伯, 第二任總長是罗芳伯, 兰芳大统制名称取之於此.

逃往蘇門答臘的華人一直往西遷徙，並於馬來亞半島定居。當中的一位後人後來更成為了東南亞的顯赫人物，他就是被譽為新加坡國父的李光耀。

weird

weird. just don't know why..there's a sense of weirdness in me. maybe i'm seriously suffering from pre-block test syndrome. it took me almost more than one hour to really fall asleep these few days. dat means i have been sleeping at near 2 am these days. hmm it certainly may/shld be because i slept too much in the morning. but that does not explain why so many thoughts suddenly congregate in my mind the moment i lie on my bed. and i just could not help but to give each thought some thought. things like my plan after A's (relief teaching? volunteer work?), future career,which uni to go to, family, friends... almost everything.

haha had a random (hehe yup i just randomly walked into my parents' room) talk with my parents. and our conclusion is focus more on studies now. once i can get good results, i will have plenty choices, everything will please me then . :P

yup the talk gave me new motivation to study so i shall continue to mug hard for block test. one more week to go...

那个早晨

this is a poem i wrote in sec 3...haha was wasting my time while surfing the net, then found it on hetero poetry club website. :P

那个早晨

黎明光临
剔透着你的眼睛
旋涡着我俩的爱情
无法自拔，只想看
透过你的心窗
解开你的沉思
海
枯了
石
烂了
情谊
也得持续下去
荒天 老地
夕阳 热
我俩走着。。。
下去，下去。。。

an interesting reply to this poem by chen hua biao: :D

子夜离去

遮掩着他的嘴巴

爆炸出他们的憎恨

无法相处，不想听

浸入他的脑浆

绑死他的庸俗

地

哭了

时

懒了

憎恨

也得斩断

老天荒地

晨曦 冷

他们飞翔!

上去！上去！

约定开始淡忘的这一秒

好想摘一束薰衣草
送给秋天的风

裹一层午后的温度
系上彩虹

滴。
一滴福尔马林


在季节的信封里

等待签收

-两个天才加在一起等于一首诗-

两杯忧愁
个子的高矮是方向
天平座迷失了的
才是我的地图
加了一份憔悴
在床底下有我的过去
一袋袋沉淀
起风的地方 在哪里
等侯下一次的飞扬
于是我睡了
一被子的暖和
首先从天空开始
诗般 结束

-软大拇的诗-

我妈在想我
池塘里的蝌蚪在想我
一墙的小头钉
窗外的空气在飘落
新买的牙刷
我在想谁

~ two random poems written together by me n ww(她一句我一句) during lep writing camp. haha it's quite surprising that the sentences can actually gel together cos we did not deliberately try to link them. :P

。。。

高中生活晃眼间已过了一年半，一开始的新鲜感如一切美丽的事物一样拥有短暂的生命。而随即卷入心头的是一股隐约作痛的怀念。这怀念在内心乱窜了几圈后，又被固执的理智掩埋在心的最深处。本想过过游手好闲的日子，却始终无法如愿。忙了一整年，我想我当初的选择是正确的。因为一年后的我长大了， 也变得更坚强了，付出的一切都是值得的。为这一切，我必须献上感恩。现在终于忙完了，终于可以尝尝每天一放学就回家的感觉。我只能说，现在的我是幸福的！感谢神！那到底什么是幸福？对我而言，幸福是可以在星期六的早上在妈妈的呼唤声中醒来；幸福是可以陪妈妈吃早餐，吃午餐；幸福是可以听老哥说一些有的没的；幸福是可以抱着爸爸，听他笑着说我好烦；幸福是可以同全家人边吃晚餐边看电视。所以，我真的很幸福！

再别康桥

yay! today marks the end of one of the worst weeks in this term with 3 tests and a compre timed assignment! :) cheers!! hahha but sadly, i din do well for almost all of them, hopefully econs can give me some consolation but certainly not the others. i was hoping to score better for math this time round, but...毫无希望啊。。。btw, this song has super impressive lyrics. :D 与原文对比了，才真正不得不感叹写词人的用心与厉害。牛人一个也！

再别康桥 S.H.E

马蹄踏过石板街道

窄巷深处有人祷告

雨后水洼教堂倾倒

意识流的四十度角

图书馆前站着半座石雕

六个便士带走一副素描

壁炉终日孤独吐着火苗

煤油灯下岁月不被惊扰

你在剑桥一身寂寞穿黑色学袍

你用诗句歌唱爱情押美丽韵脚

一船星辉见证那个古典的拥抱

那片水草还在怀念你撑的长蒿

你在剑桥半生寂寞穿中国长袍

你用诗句告别爱情押绝望韵脚

谁的衣袖带走那片云彩的来到

离别笙萧那样沉默像一种凭吊

红砖墙壁紫藤缠绕

垂柳摇醒两岸拂晓

怀旧风琴失传民谣

中世纪就开始苍老

广场鸽子仰望天空思考

歌特尖塔勾勒末世线条

故事流过落日的叹息桥

诗人的爱还在唱咏叹调

你在剑桥一身寂寞穿黑色学袍

你用诗句歌唱爱情押美丽韵脚

一船星辉见证那个古典的拥抱

那片水草还在怀念你撑的长蒿

你在剑桥半生寂寞穿中国长袍

你用诗句告别爱情押绝望韵脚

谁的衣袖带走那片云彩的来到

离别笙萧那样沉默像一种凭吊

你在剑桥一身寂寞穿黑色学袍

你用诗句歌唱爱情押美丽韵脚

一船星辉见证那个古典的拥抱

那片水草还在怀念你撑的长蒿

你在剑桥半生寂寞穿中国长袍

你用诗句告别爱情押绝望韵脚

谁的衣袖带走那片云彩的来到

离别笙萧那样沉默像一种凭吊

VS

再别康桥 徐志摩

轻轻的我走了，正如我轻轻的来；

我轻轻的招手，作别西天的云彩。

那河畔的金柳是夕阳中的新娘

波光里的艳影，在我的心头荡漾。

软泥上的青荇，油油的在水底招摇；

在康河的柔波里，我甘心做一条水草

那树荫下的一潭，不是清泉，

是天上虹揉碎在浮藻间，沉淀着彩虹似的梦。

寻梦？撑一支长篙，向青草更青处漫溯，

满载一船星辉，在星辉斑斓里放歌

但我不能放歌，悄悄是别离的笙箫；

夏虫也为我沉默，沉默是今晚的康桥！

悄悄的我走了，正如我悄悄的来；

我挥一挥衣袖，不带走一片云彩。

加油！！！

had chem test today. arh... surely die for dat but i think i deserved it cos relli din prepare well for the test. i shall just volunteer to enrol into miss chua's chem remedial class tml. sighz i am totally not performing up to standard for chem this year :( maybe i shld start a chem survival plan together with my GP and econs soon...

hmm okie, i shall be my own motivation from now onwards. 加油，兰芳！！！

absolutely random

莫名的nostalgia
一捆一捆
在有限的脑袋里拥抱
缠绕 无限的
莫名
是你的微笑
撕裂唯一的战袍
想念 侵入虚空
哼起“我们小时候”
。。。 。。。

定格
在“不想长大”的那一刻

提前想念

午后的阳光总有一种煽情的能力。独自一人走在每天必经的天桥上， 呼吸着被晒过的空气，不禁心中感慨许多。突然开始提前七个月想念穿校服的日子。离开华中后，应该就没有机会再穿校服了吧。告别了校服，就等于告别了天真浪漫的岁月。

我太习惯了，太习惯现在的一切。过去的十几年，我已经习惯这么过了。每天早起，穿上校服，背上书包，啃着面包追巴士，放学后，穿着同样的校服，背着同样的书包，搭上同样的巴士回家。 这样的日子或许缺乏刺激，但我却在不知不觉中习惯了这样的习惯。

毕业后的日子，我并没有消耗太多力气遐想，也没有勇气去仔细思量。而未来的去向至今还不敢给予肯定的答案。并不是完全没想过，只是内战打得正凶，不适宜如此轻率地作出决定。 一切顺其自然吧。:D

（哈哈 俺新的口头禅据朋友反应说是“随意啦”。其实我个人并没有察觉，管它是什么，随意啦...）

无题

had five items today. hehe did quite okay for all, was especially satisfied with my sit ups, got improvement of 2 i thk :P but at least i secured an A for that. thk the tchrs were rather lenient today, esp for the pull ups, the average for our class girls was above 15!! my... btw, our class guys were really nice, they bought each of us a packet of drink. wooo...

anw, me and ww had a promise to compose a poem. so here's my poem...still cun thk of a suitable title.

无题

僵硬的手指
在钢琴的道路上
集体游行
踏出的指纹
是失控的音符
疯狂撞击
宣示一片空间
离别 在黑白上空
谱成一首葬歌
窒息的豆芽
终于枯萎
一条扭曲的直线

风景

举得起，放得下，叫举重，举不起，放不下，叫负担。
做你爱做的事，并不意味着生活过得轻松，但绝对可以活得更精彩。
人类的智慧不是埋藏在前人的经验里，而是潜伏在自己的心灵中。

自己把自己说服了，是一种理智的胜利；
自己被自己感动了，是一种心灵的升华；
自己把自己征服了，是一种人生的成熟。

眺望远处，风景迷人，走进风景，自己也是风景。

hmm found this on the net, think it's really well-said.. :)

yay new blog!!

suddenly have the urge to create a new blog. so here it is! though i had a bad record of not updating my blog, i shall try to pen down my random thoughts whenever i have the time. :P haha

am really grateful for this labour day holiday. hmm but i din relly make use of the time meaningfully. only did part of my hssrp report and am still in the midst of the overdue chi compo. sighz... shall not waste time. will update soon!