new blog!

haha decided to create a new blog cos heard that in china we wun be able to use blogspot. so i guess the only way out is to create another blog. so now my new blog add is www.smellybean.wordpress.com.cn.

hmm so i will nt be using this blog anymore :/

so much...

It is indeed a blessing to be living in a tropical country where there's no need to worry about changing seasons. At least we don't need to make preparations for decreasing/increasing temperatures. But i guess it just lacks some sense of romance? or is romance the right word to describe that innate desire i have? It's been ten years since i came here. I've pretty gotten used to everything here, be it the people, the places, the food... Sometimes others, and myself even, would think that i'm more like a singaporean than a chinese. Haha i guess it's because i don't carry with me a special accent? and i always explain to others because i came from fujian and many singaporeans actually belong to hokkien dialect group, maybe that's why i simply blend in so well. but who really cares man? haha.

yes i like who and where i am. and i believe this will be the place where i will spend most parts of my life in. but there's just something inside that tells me to go out, out of this familiar place, and into a new environment, somewhere different, somewhere with four seasons (:p). isn't it exciting to experience four different seasons? to see different sceneries in one year? to meet different people? to study under a different education system? all these seem too attractive. and yes i'm going to fulfill my dream of doing the course i like and eventually come back to do the job i like 4 years or maybe 5 years later. it's all but a dream to me a few months back. now it's so real that i thought i'm still dreaming. silly sia. maybe i'm just being the slow self who's always slow when it comes to strong emotions, like overwhelming sadness that will eventually sweep over me when i leave this country. i know i will be sad, i know tears are bound to come, i know everything will eventually turn out to be not as nice and happy as they seem to me right now. but i'm not going to let such emotions come in so soon, hehe not until at least 2 months later, hopefully.

i have been doing some serious stuff, by that i mean stuff that will bring in income. haha and of course not neglecting all the scholarship stuff that's coming in. on some days, i just don't feel like doing anything. i just want to read books or just sit on sofa and not doing anything. i don't think i will get to enjoy this kind of lifestyle ever again, maybe only when i'm super old.

woa this is a long entry sia. just suddenly feel like writing so here's all my crap. :P i hope i can keep up this habit of regular blogging when i'm overseas, at least that's what i promised xin. (though i'm not entirely confident of doing that. but i'll try. :D)

p.s i love haruki murakami!! he writes so well! i'm so going to buy all his books when i have more money! :DDD

我又乱写一通了

总觉得必须写些东西了，但也总是碍于人的惰性而迟迟没有静下心来写。其实，现在若真要写，我倒也写不出任何有主题的东西来。那就讲讲近来的状况吧。教育部真是热心的不行。活动可是接二连三地冲着我来。单单跑教育部都跑了好几趟。除了这些琐碎的事情外，就剩下翻译工作了。今天好有成就感，因为赶完了多一个单元。有些近乎虚脱的感觉。但也算是一种另类的快感吧。

昨天回了一趟华中。在熟悉的小角落，一边享受着凉凉的微风，一边畅谈我们过去，现在与将来的人生。感觉几爽！但却始终摆脱不了内心深处淡淡的伤感。因为未来虽摊在眼前，却似乎非常遥远。而且想象各自不同的生活，在两个月后就要正式开始，我想我是有恐惧的，但同时我又想暂时埋葬这份恐惧。请原谅我在这个时刻懦弱地选择了逃避。

尝试在脑子里装满无限的期待与兴奋，至少现在我要这样做。

到底谁才是幸运儿?

自由，本是快乐的捷径。
但真正得到了，多少人能承担得起?

自由过了保鲜期，会发酵成寂寞。
翅膀失去了玩具的新奇，慢慢变成枷锁。

-王文华

Thanks

It's been a 5 months' test of both determination and patience.

And now finally the answer's revealed.

I truly thank God for the countless blessings i have in my short life so far. All i have in mind is just thanks to Him.

The journey ahead is now full of excitement as well as challenges. but i believe He will hold my hands and walk with me for the rest of my life.

几米故事的开始

我在寒冬里，梦见走进春天的花园... ...

醒来时，香气满身。


- 几米

《寂寞之歌》--藤井树

把人朝回忆的湖里丢，

一定会漾出惊人的水花。